Some of my frez stil continue their uni life, especially d science student, they courses r 4 years duration n just a few ppl continue future study by taking master courses. 2ml is d 1st day for all uni student except Kedah, Kelantan n Terengganu. They start class on today.
Nw me r so be envious of them can continue study n enjoy their uni life. Bcoz after grad, nd face a nw challenge in tis realistic community, find a good job for own future, earn $ for continue own life n also family.
B4 grad, me alrdy hv debt. Y? Bcoz i borrow $ from gov-PTPTN 4 my degree study n nw finish my degree nd start pay back 2 gov. Bt d gov is good also cos it no nd 2 pay back d debt immedially after grad, v giving 1 year time 2 hv a break n find job thn after 1 year gov wil mail us letter tat inform us can start pay our debt.
Last9, i meet my frez 4 hi tea thn v chat n chat abt 2 hours. Bt d time r running so fast, at d last v all gtg cos almost of us hv another date or appointment. V all made a date with each other tat meet whn they back.
To all my dear frez, safe journey n study hard ya!! C u all next time.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Jobless,失业...
My uni life alrdy finish near abt 2 month but me still sit at home n do nothing. It means I'm jobless, haiz... This is my new life after 3 years uni life. this 2 month i just sit at home, face the computer online or read newspaper. For wat?search jobs!
Although have some respond from some company for asking go 2 interview, but i was fail. Some of the interviewer is very nice, give me some advice n very good 2 me, but everything are won't smoothly n lucky. 1 of the interview give me very bad impression, i know tat my skill are poor n i stil is a fresh grad, bt she no nd try 2 satirize me n also suspicion my academic result although i'm was a active student whn study uni. At tat moment i'm very angry n my mentality was start abnormal n i stil very remember with clearly wat she said 2 me.
This 2 month i just get 5 interview n i just enter 4 interview from this 5. Luckly tat i just hv 1 bad interview experience.
I know tat i alrdy 2 month din write blog cos hv some reason n 1 o them is i'm lazy,hehe...
This 2 month my family randomly ask me fast2 get a job thn no nd everyday sit at home as useless person, sien nia...
Now if i go working, i'm stil hv problem nd 2 solve -- i din hv transport!!!!!
Now dont think so much, wait n c hw is going future...
Although have some respond from some company for asking go 2 interview, but i was fail. Some of the interviewer is very nice, give me some advice n very good 2 me, but everything are won't smoothly n lucky. 1 of the interview give me very bad impression, i know tat my skill are poor n i stil is a fresh grad, bt she no nd try 2 satirize me n also suspicion my academic result although i'm was a active student whn study uni. At tat moment i'm very angry n my mentality was start abnormal n i stil very remember with clearly wat she said 2 me.
This 2 month i just get 5 interview n i just enter 4 interview from this 5. Luckly tat i just hv 1 bad interview experience.
I know tat i alrdy 2 month din write blog cos hv some reason n 1 o them is i'm lazy,hehe...
This 2 month my family randomly ask me fast2 get a job thn no nd everyday sit at home as useless person, sien nia...
Now if i go working, i'm stil hv problem nd 2 solve -- i din hv transport!!!!!
Now dont think so much, wait n c hw is going future...
Sunday, April 20, 2008
复杂的情感。。。
偶尔感觉失去斗志，才会发现到原来之前自己是如何的爱拼~ 为什么现在变成这样子了？是走得太快了吗？还是太慢？还是眼前的挑战令自己怯步呢？
自己很想冷静下来，自我分析所发生的事情，但有时就是太过的砖牛角尖，往往都很难解决自己所面对的一切，等到发生了一些不愉快的事件后，事情已一发不可收拾了！
凡人--顾名思义就是平凡的人，没有任何特异功能，很多事情是无可避免的，社会是现实的，这是理所当然。以为“家”是很温暖的，永远都是安全港，但有时候我会问自己，是吗？为何我会有这种想法，是我的错觉吗？还是我想太多了？但，往往发生在我身上的许多事件都令我会有这种想法，我开始怀疑所谓的家，是否有如大家所说的如此安全与温暖呢？
我很想跟自己说这是你自己想太多了，停止再转牛角尖。是否太理智是会有反效果呢？
除了自己所面对的烦恼，压力，等等。。。 家里所发生的事件，吵闹，压力，争执，等等。。。都令我感到加倍的压迫感，时时刻刻好像要爆炸了一样，我好担心有一天我会逃到外面去，撇开一切，什么都不管。因为当我还是个高中生时，我一是个很有想法与独立的女孩子，家人对我的不了解，不关怀与不公平的对待，我都试着做出抗议，但一次又一次失败了，所以当时的我就曾经萌起离家出走的念头，但我还是放弃了。
在大学的这3年里，我想了很多计划，想以后工作后，开始积存不动产，先买车子，然后买一座小单位，搬出去住，然后每年都有一个旅行计划。搬出去住，是让自己有个私人空间与喘气的空间，离开这有一点点阴影的家。有人可能认为我这样做太不可思议了吧，毕竟那是你从下到大生活的家啊！这样太夸张了吧。
不过现在的我认为这是唯一能解决我心灵上的问题。可能过了几年我现在的想法又换了，事情的转变与变化谁都布置也不懂，事实是难以预料的！
祝自己：事事都顺利
自己很想冷静下来，自我分析所发生的事情，但有时就是太过的砖牛角尖，往往都很难解决自己所面对的一切，等到发生了一些不愉快的事件后，事情已一发不可收拾了！
凡人--顾名思义就是平凡的人，没有任何特异功能，很多事情是无可避免的，社会是现实的，这是理所当然。以为“家”是很温暖的，永远都是安全港，但有时候我会问自己，是吗？为何我会有这种想法，是我的错觉吗？还是我想太多了？但，往往发生在我身上的许多事件都令我会有这种想法，我开始怀疑所谓的家，是否有如大家所说的如此安全与温暖呢？
我很想跟自己说这是你自己想太多了，停止再转牛角尖。是否太理智是会有反效果呢？
除了自己所面对的烦恼，压力，等等。。。 家里所发生的事件，吵闹，压力，争执，等等。。。都令我感到加倍的压迫感，时时刻刻好像要爆炸了一样，我好担心有一天我会逃到外面去，撇开一切，什么都不管。因为当我还是个高中生时，我一是个很有想法与独立的女孩子，家人对我的不了解，不关怀与不公平的对待，我都试着做出抗议，但一次又一次失败了，所以当时的我就曾经萌起离家出走的念头，但我还是放弃了。
在大学的这3年里，我想了很多计划，想以后工作后，开始积存不动产，先买车子，然后买一座小单位，搬出去住，然后每年都有一个旅行计划。搬出去住，是让自己有个私人空间与喘气的空间，离开这有一点点阴影的家。有人可能认为我这样做太不可思议了吧，毕竟那是你从下到大生活的家啊！这样太夸张了吧。
不过现在的我认为这是唯一能解决我心灵上的问题。可能过了几年我现在的想法又换了，事情的转变与变化谁都布置也不懂，事实是难以预料的！
祝自己：事事都顺利
Saturday, April 19, 2008
my future...
i really cant make a decision 4 my own future. at 1st i plan 2 continue further study--MEc(Master of Economics), but after tat 1 study MBA (Master of Business Administration). my Friend told me if 1 study MBA better have working experience especially if study at oversea. then my plan change again, plan working 1st then continue study after working 2-4 years.
me start searching job but i don't know 1 work in which field, work at where... my face many problem include financial, pressure from family... i very confusing n struggle. last 2 days i wrote my resume but i stuck at the part - what the position job i want it. i just left it like that and save in my notebook.
until now i din open it 2 edit again, i afraid 2 do it. i really dont know hw 2 continue my future, suddently i feel tat my plans all are out of my control, i cant follow what i 1 2 do. i stuck!!! i'm unassisted!!!
me start searching job but i don't know 1 work in which field, work at where... my face many problem include financial, pressure from family... i very confusing n struggle. last 2 days i wrote my resume but i stuck at the part - what the position job i want it. i just left it like that and save in my notebook.
until now i din open it 2 edit again, i afraid 2 do it. i really dont know hw 2 continue my future, suddently i feel tat my plans all are out of my control, i cant follow what i 1 2 do. i stuck!!! i'm unassisted!!!
继续？？放弃？？--ending
昨天听朋友说他有了女朋友，开始还不是很相信，发现他在线上就再次以朋友的语气问他，同时也一直跟自己说他不会回应我的，或否认它，但事实却被我而驰，不一会儿他就承认了她的存在。
本人的第六感一向来都满准的，一猜就猜到是哪个女的（不是我的之前我所说得我的好朋友，是一个我有看过的女生，他的朋友），他也承认了。不过在感觉这方面的sence，本人却慢了点，我的好朋友知道这件事后，立即sms我还好吗？倔强的我还一幅‘我很好，我没事’的表现，别担心！
不过，说完这几句话，我的心开始在淌血了，心突然好痛，一整天都不知所措，想到在泰国买的手信，它将永远都不会到达主人的手中，我对他的感觉都永远的深埋在我心中，以后谁都将不会知道这秘密。
今天朋友们会举行一个gathering，本来叫他顺便来在我因我不懂地点，我的车也坏了，问他可否来在我一趟，他居然跟我说忘了我家在哪儿，我顿时感到对这男人绝望了。有如我学长对我说的‘不是你的，他将不会属于你’，强求的爱情是不幸福的。女人，要做个被爱的人，别做个去爱的那个人。
写完这篇文章后，对他的一切一切感情与感觉，就籍着把它给放下与忘掉，重新开始重视自己的新生活。
本人的第六感一向来都满准的，一猜就猜到是哪个女的（不是我的之前我所说得我的好朋友，是一个我有看过的女生，他的朋友），他也承认了。不过在感觉这方面的sence，本人却慢了点，我的好朋友知道这件事后，立即sms我还好吗？倔强的我还一幅‘我很好，我没事’的表现，别担心！
不过，说完这几句话，我的心开始在淌血了，心突然好痛，一整天都不知所措，想到在泰国买的手信，它将永远都不会到达主人的手中，我对他的感觉都永远的深埋在我心中，以后谁都将不会知道这秘密。
今天朋友们会举行一个gathering，本来叫他顺便来在我因我不懂地点，我的车也坏了，问他可否来在我一趟，他居然跟我说忘了我家在哪儿，我顿时感到对这男人绝望了。有如我学长对我说的‘不是你的，他将不会属于你’，强求的爱情是不幸福的。女人，要做个被爱的人，别做个去爱的那个人。
写完这篇文章后，对他的一切一切感情与感觉，就籍着把它给放下与忘掉，重新开始重视自己的新生活。
the end
Friday, April 18, 2008
烦烦烦。。。
时间过得真快，一眨眼四个月-一个学期就快完了！很有可能的人生最后一次考试就快要来临了。最近朋友们一直搞gathering, 害我的心情一直处在落寞与感叹，很舍不得一起在大学生活的朋友与知己。现在的我，呆在家里收拾心情与准备面对即将来临的期末考试，希望这次考试一切都顺利，平安过关。
有好多好多话想说，但却不知该从哪里说起，思绪好乱，家人一直追问读完书后要到哪里工作，要从事哪一行，等等。。。已出来社会工作的朋友们都说现在好多公司都要请人，不愁没工作，以我们的学历好多公司都要聘请，叫我别担心。
但我的心还是很乱，爸爸年级已高，上还有一个的就读硕士的哥哥，下还有一个小学六年级的妹妹。父母亲还一直暗示我该去工作了，帮忙补贴家用。
好烦哪。。。。。。
有好多好多话想说，但却不知该从哪里说起，思绪好乱，家人一直追问读完书后要到哪里工作，要从事哪一行，等等。。。已出来社会工作的朋友们都说现在好多公司都要请人，不愁没工作，以我们的学历好多公司都要聘请，叫我别担心。
但我的心还是很乱，爸爸年级已高，上还有一个的就读硕士的哥哥，下还有一个小学六年级的妹妹。父母亲还一直暗示我该去工作了，帮忙补贴家用。
好烦哪。。。。。。
Sunday, January 13, 2008
2008—1st Diary (12/1/08)
This is my 1st week diary when I back 2 uum. 1st day when I reach my room I feel very shock! Why? My college, my block and also my room didn’t change, roommate already change (before back already know it.) Let me feel shock is I need acclimatize oneself to the new roommate and the new side in same room that I sleep. The new roommate is not matter to me but is the new side that I will sleep in a semester. I already have the habit at the old side and all equipments, I already used 1 year and has bring out my sentiment with them all.
I request to my new roommate to change back my old place to me but she reject my request with put her one's foot down. I feel so down and like a failure-(super senior vs. super junior—super junior WIN) start clean my new place and keeping my things in the all new equipments. This is 1st time I in uum (already 2½ years) can’t sleep well and have a nightmare. The second day I tell myself that I need to comfort the new ‘environment’ and try get the ‘fun’ at the new side, then I will have a good 3 years memory for my university life. This is my last semester in uum, I must have a happy n joyful for this about 4 months.
But human is a very unpredictable organism, if you want to life in this many competitors world you must comfort yourself in this situation. In a short 1 week, I almost 90% comfort myself in the new side and start my dissipated life. What I’m doing? Morning I go to attend class, then at night I like a useless human do some useless things, haha… Start the first 3days, I went to my friend room chat until about 12am then go back to room and sleep. The rest I stay in room and watching Korea entertainment programmed—Love Letter because my friend goes back home. I just go out when feel very hungry to buy either lunch or dinner. Love Letter is very funny and always made me laugh; sometimes my body is uncontrollable shake with them!
Sometimes I also have chat to my new roommate or same block friends, don’t worry that I became dummy. Just have 1 night I got go to online a moment to find some info for my mom and also check mail. Why so many times can go to online and didn’t go and just go a moment? It is because I’m lazy and have many mosquito at the hall, this is 1 of reason I call myself is useless!! Agree? The last day in this week is end soon, tomorrow is a new day and a new week. Hope me can stop this dissipated life and start a new meaningful life. This weekend I will back home because Sunday is holiday and total have 4 days holidays, yeah!!
I request to my new roommate to change back my old place to me but she reject my request with put her one's foot down. I feel so down and like a failure-(super senior vs. super junior—super junior WIN) start clean my new place and keeping my things in the all new equipments. This is 1st time I in uum (already 2½ years) can’t sleep well and have a nightmare. The second day I tell myself that I need to comfort the new ‘environment’ and try get the ‘fun’ at the new side, then I will have a good 3 years memory for my university life. This is my last semester in uum, I must have a happy n joyful for this about 4 months.
But human is a very unpredictable organism, if you want to life in this many competitors world you must comfort yourself in this situation. In a short 1 week, I almost 90% comfort myself in the new side and start my dissipated life. What I’m doing? Morning I go to attend class, then at night I like a useless human do some useless things, haha… Start the first 3days, I went to my friend room chat until about 12am then go back to room and sleep. The rest I stay in room and watching Korea entertainment programmed—Love Letter because my friend goes back home. I just go out when feel very hungry to buy either lunch or dinner. Love Letter is very funny and always made me laugh; sometimes my body is uncontrollable shake with them!
Sometimes I also have chat to my new roommate or same block friends, don’t worry that I became dummy. Just have 1 night I got go to online a moment to find some info for my mom and also check mail. Why so many times can go to online and didn’t go and just go a moment? It is because I’m lazy and have many mosquito at the hall, this is 1 of reason I call myself is useless!! Agree? The last day in this week is end soon, tomorrow is a new day and a new week. Hope me can stop this dissipated life and start a new meaningful life. This weekend I will back home because Sunday is holiday and total have 4 days holidays, yeah!!
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