Survive...

I stopped almost 5 months to writing a blog, although i know that my blog was unscreened by anyone. I'm scare to wrote anythings bcos i know that i will be very sad and emotional.
Although I just stepped in work society around 5 months and just changed 1 job, currently job is my 2nd job, but this changes was given a big impact for my life and careers, there is a big different between my 1st job and 2nd job,

My previous company is a small and simple structured company and my current company is a big and complicated company; but the main point is I'm the GM administrator, my department is director floor.
In this company, I saw the real working society and the real face of human. I also was requested by CEO secretary to made a big changes for my personality and image, i must be look and think mature, including the style i eat, walk, talk, sit... sometime also need to ACT in other characters, can be myself, so tired...

Now i notice that why some philosopher said the life like theatre, you need to act for survive in this world.